25/09/2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Oct 2007
Kavitha : pravina, what do u think of mathan?
Me: what should i think about him?
kavitha: summa sollu la..
me: ok, i think he is very nice, good boy...
anyway,why are u asking this da?
kavitha: its because, somehow or rather, whenever
we ( kavitha and siva) talk about you, we also
have to say something about mathan, and vice versa..
me: hmm. ok so?
kavitha: so nothing, we are thinking of linking both of u..
me: hahahaha. ok dun pull me into this ah! plz!
and so ends the day, after which i totally forgot about
this matter, and continued until,
Dec 2 2007
my bdae, my precious day, which was dedicated for my
happiness and my joy. i received a call, at about 11..
mathan: hey,happy bdae..
me: huh? thank you but who is this?
mathan: oh sorry, its me mathan, siva cousin..
me: oh hi, thank you again.
mathan: no problem, so how was ur day, everyone wished?
me: yup i guess.. anyway thank you so much again..
mathan: no problem! shall leave the final hour to you..
shall not disturb.
me: haha, ok.....
and so ended that conversation......
i didnt noe what was to come
in another couple of weeks...
DEC 16 2007{{{Sangeetha's bdae}}}
the day was just so beautiful..
i felt so good to be there..
little did i noe that i was gonna meet
someone who will change my life.
Mathan, a fren of siva(kavitha's so called louvess)
and so started all the teases and all..
started from siva, kavitha, vanan, and even
Raakesh! i felt shy, somehow or rather..
Stood there, smiling away, looked at his face,
seeing the same shyness, neither did i feel like
saying anything, and nor did he say anything too..
10pm:
the onli thing i said at that time was,
"guys, i am leaving.. "
when almost everyone said ok...
mathan: " hey, just dance for one more song, then leave.."
me: no..its already late, amma will scold, so sorry..
mathan: ok then...
i left, returned back to woodlands, my sis place..
i woke up the next day, for dance practise in school.
i saw this sms, which was obviously from him..
hey, dun mind all the teases, they are always like that,
and anyway, i reached home already, good night sweet dreams!
hahha, what started working into me? i dunno.. but i felt
something around me.. palaya kaalathu panjagamsss...
and ya, although i didnt develop any feelings, i felt some kind
of a stupid thing.. hahahaha...
after which as days went by, we started smsing and calling each
other, which then i slowly fell for him..eventually i started
loving him.. although i wouldnt consider it as a deep love,
the feeling is there. u should get it...
feb 14....
the day, it exactly started.. so much of sacrifices from him,
the type of sacrifice that no one would want to choose to do.
he did! knowing the type of situation i was in..
i was not a person who could go out often,
not a person who could talk on the fone for hours,
not a person who is daring to go out wif the bf,
so, being wif me could sometimes can be a total waste...
{take good note of this phrase)
and yup, after a couple of months, i started loving him,
and truly,... well lets just not talk about it..
but i did change myself for his sake, as much as i could,
started with those deep lies to my mum, projects, oreintations
need to go to school early.. and many many more..
try to spend as much time as i could..
September 14: 7 months...
for the first time, he forgot our anniversary..EVERYTHING
went wrong.. arguments like neva before..ALL started when
he had a issue wif his fren. and ended up not talkin to me
which i apparently still cannot take.
furthermore, he then adds on saying that i can neva be a good
gf, as what he expects is FUN, in a relationship and not love..
how much more do i have to do, I DUNNO!
SEptember 25: yesterday...
i handed him a gift.. a cap bought from bugis, customised wif
his name.(look below for foto)..
reaction was not as expected, headed towards the canteen,
had a drink, and he just started walking. ( ya in between i called
kavitha to blabber shit, when i saw the badge i bought him. it was
placed in his bag very nicely)
after we reached the MRT station, the only sentence he spoke was
" can u take back the present??"
Fuck that moment of feeling.. neva ever should anyone encounter it..
the feeling is soooo not good. and, then did i realised something..
he just wanted a break from me.. which i think was pretty predictable..
after this i met kavitha... she made me feel better, but after that
when i headedback home, the feeling was back, and i called it off.
" you could have just told me straight at my face, i would have let
you alone mathan.. "
" i guess you got the idea"
"yep i did"
"what else you want me to say?"
"nothing just treasure the gift i bought just like how i do to urs"
"i will"
..............................
dear Mathu,
i just want you to noe something.. you may have left me,
but ur heart still belongs to me... the gift u bought me is enough for
all my life. i live is those memories you left me in, for you are the
one i love deeply.. happy 19th birthday.. love you and miss u too..
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மனதில் காதலுடன்
என் அருகில் இருந்தாய் …
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நீ சிரிக்கவே
காதல் மாறாமல்
உன் அருகில் நான் இல்லையடா…
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Me,MySelF And I...
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Gal with heart of my own, love to make noise, hang out wif
frens and love my family! Love music!! Love rain, love pink
tulips and Red Roses, love the colour pink, purple,
black, white and red, Open Minded, Love Kids, lovable,
straight forward, joker, irritating, Short, small kid by
heart… so much to write but soo little time..
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